A Place In The Heart

I have no place within anyone's heart;
No friend that would hold me as dear.
I'm alone and abandoned, discarded~disowned,
and wonder why I'm even here.

I looked at my soul to see who I was
and why I was feeling left out.
It shattered in fragments like crystal shard
to find out what I was about.

I watched as they scattered and drifted away
to places where I've never been.
And holding within them, the good and the bad;
The love and the hate and the sin. . .

I brushed by your face in the softest breeze;
I'm the memory your eyes never see.
I'm the teardrop that came in your dream one night;
I'm the heartache that won't let you be.

And then I touched someone~a stranger to me,
who pushed the annoyance away.
For he didn't know, was a piece of my soul
that was crushed by his footsteps that day.

Another piece fell on one old and slow;
A heart that would surely be kind.
But I was not wanted around anymore,
so again, I was left far behind.

I am the friend that you still haven't found;
Love, that you just pushed away.
The one that was trying to walk by your side;
It was I, that had wanted to stay.

I drifted upon a philosopher;
Someone with knowledge to give.
But he had no time to spend with my soul,
and could have cared less if I lived.

I fell upon nature~the innocence there.
Was then, I was feeling my best.
A bird sang a song in the shade of the trees,
to calm my soul, needing to rest.
 
I called back the pieces~the ones still adrift,
and asked them why I was alone.
"Tell me why no one is here by my side?
I'm discarded, abandoned~disowned."

"Sometimes you will be," they said all at once.
"We've found that you get what you give.
Those you have hurt, if you meant to or not,
you'll feel with your tears as you live."

I bent my head down and accepted their words;
Tho' I knew in my heart, they were right.
And here, I will cry in the darkness~alone,
for all that are lonely tonight.

© Cheryl Taul
October 13, 2000